Monetarily my 2012 started off pretty well with about $20k in cashes the 1st month or so, but since then it has been far from great. I’ve basically been grinding hardcore (dropping BI levels) and breaking even for the most part. This can be extremely frustrating when you are a full-time poker player, but it’s essential to keep pushing forward… so I do.
I think during these types of spells staying focused on your job can be the hardest thing to do. In a game that involves so much negativity (on and off the table) how can you stay focused and keep pushing forward? It’s not an easy question to answer and the solutions for some may not be the same as others. For me tho, keeping myself busy by studying the game and coaching, can be a great release/motivator.
One thing I will say is that I never focus on the money aspect of it. I think that can just drive you crazy! I try to just focus on making optimal decisions, in an optimal environment, with an optimal state of mind, and in theory if I can do all of that the money will fall in place.
In an effort to continue staying focused, growing my game, and playing optimally I decided to get some coaching from another professional. Before I bit that bullet tho I made sure that I researched the coach, was happy with with their understanding of the game, but maybe even more important to me is that they were a positive minded individual. I mean this is a game of positive expectation right? So I think it’ll be easier to find that positive value in coaching, when you have a coach that understands that too. I think positivity is something you don’t find enough in this game and there are other “pros” who don’t embrace this enough. I mean how can you expect for people to respect you, and seek out your opinion when you constantly berate others play (on and off the table)? Ok that might have been a little rant there, but it annoys me (tho it probably shouldn’t). Anyway, I spent 3 hrs with the Coach that I had finally decided upon, and tho we didn’t talk about direct poker strategy but maybe 30min-1hr, there was more value in the session than I might ever be able to describe to you in this blog. Thank you Alexander “Assassinato”! 🙂 (Great guy/Coach)
I will say that as I write this blog I feel very confident about my game and my work ethic, but I can’t say that I would be where I am today had I not had conflict in my life. If I were crushing it all this year would I have progressed my game to its current level? Probably not… One thing is for certain tho and has always been a certainty for me, and that’s my will to succeed. I WILL seek out my personal destiny and I know that my path WILL be easier traveled, but maybe it won’t be tomorrow… or the next day… or the next month. Regardless, despite conflict always remember – We are our own worst enemy. Make the most of what you have and cherish your path in life, otherwise you just aren’t living.
I might be on the worst spell of poker in my life as far as money goes, but I’m happy. I have a great girlfriend, great puppy, great friends, a roof over my head, an internet connection, and clothes on my back and that’s all I need. Can you say that to yourself and truly mean it? I can.
Where there’s a will – there IS a way.
I toast to you poker players out there and here is to the path of most resistance 😉